What do you think of my email to my friend about how i feel?

OK. I'm going to say this as gently as I can. You are borderline obsessive. You have been asking questions about this guy for months! I honestly know how you feel, I've been in situations like this before. You have to be careful though, you don't want to end up with something like a restraining order. I really am not trying to be harsh, but buddy, you need to cool your jets.