Is it too late or did i screw up too bad? sorry if its a bit long. 10 points?

Girl, slow down. Even if he is interested you are INTENSE. That scares most guys, esp in their 20's. You need to find a local interest, not neccesarily a guy and get busy with it. That will give you perspective, and the ability to be sane when you DO see him again, if it is meant to be you will see him again.